I at least owe him for giving me such peaceful 5 years, where I
got to travel, got a home, continue doing my volunteer work and
does my rojak number of courses and he sponsored me for my
executive secretary diploma.
And ermmm....he is good in bed too, and dont demand that I do
whatever positions 
he kept himself clean, and always brush his teeth before he kisses
me, especially after he has been smoking.
and at least....he treats me as a equal instead of me as his
domestic maid & baby maker.
In a certain sense, I find that he spoilt me.